Thanks for the suggestions, everyone. My plan now is to get in a university and study economics/criminology. If that doesnt work out, then I guess I will have to enter some trades apprenticeship like electrician, etc. But yup, I've decided that education should be put on top of everything at the moment. And you're right, kayaker72, we don't always have to luck to do something that we are passionate about, but I really hope in sometime, I can find a career that I will love, so I will have to motivation to work for probably the next 4 or 5 decades. But anyways, thanks for all the comments, it really helped me to clear my mind. and ONE last thing, hopefully I can avoid debt..studying economics already taught me that it's a BAD thing, well at least for individual, and hopefully I can support myself in the next few years. (Luckily, my parents still support my living costs).